Hello and welcome to a new year! 2019 was quite a journey, and I'm sure you've all walked away from the year with new stories, tales, and memories. Be them good or bad, learn from them. The things you did right, wrong, or a little bit of both.
I had quite the time. It was a quest of finding myself, and while I'm not done, I've certainly begun and I'm excited. Last year I completed my degree in Computer Systems focusing on Games Development. I'm quite proud of myself for completing the achievement. My head still spins because my life plans have only ever lead up to this point, and now that I've completed that marathon, I'm looking around for the next.
The world's almost gone gray really. If I'm being blunt, I lost myself for quite a time while finishing up the last year. As I said, I only had the "complete school" on my life task list for a while, and since striking it off and becoming the "programmer" I wanted to be, I only then realized how broad of a term that is. Narrowing my focus, enjoying my time outside of school, and coming to terms with the fact that I had no idea how much I didn't and still don't know is a jarring slap.
At a time in my life like this, I've gone back to basics that have been drilled into me over and over again. Keep working. I've found passion in the art of learning on my own and growing into the image I see of myself. I have much more to learn, I have a long journey ahead of me, but the fact that I've now decided to start it's like I'm now an adventurer in a new world. It seems strange to say that I've "decided" to start my journey, but it's true. As I was lost, I had no direction I wanted to set off in. I almost just gave up, wanting to look for another "passion" when I realized I'd found a lot already. I was looking for more when I found happiness in what I had. That's when I started to see color once again.
The last post I left on this blog seemed a little dark and sad. This one seems much lighter. The only difference in me was my focus. I'm focused on myself, seeing me do better than yesterday and ever before. That's how I know I'm on the right path. Thanks to my friends and family over the past year. Hold onto those you consider close and tighter to those that are family. Focus on doing better, on being more and know that you can get there.
Don't give up, and make today and every day your day. Whenever you get knocked back a peg, learn from it and you never lost your footing in the first place.
Thanks for taking the time to read this and get to know me a little bit more. Looking forward to the road ahead.
All the best - Spencer